This past weekend I traveled up to Seattle for a little vacation. While I was there my friends and I decided we would go hike Mt. Pilchuck in the Cascade Mountains which is about an hour and a half north of Seattle. From what I heard it was an intermediate level hike, so I figured I wouldn't run in to any issues. Turns out the 3ish miles it took to get to the top also had an elevation gain of roughly 2,200 feet and we had already driven up the mountain a ways to get to the trailhead. The first half wasn't too bad, I was tired but not enough that I needed to stop or take any rest. The second half of the hike was a whole different story. The elevation started to get to me and once we were making our way out of the forest the terrain became rockier and harder to maneuver. There were several times that I came close to telling my friends I would just meet them back at the trailhead. I was exhausted, I couldn't breathe very well, my legs didn't want to step up anymore, and it seemed to just be getting worse. I just wanted it to be over.
I push my body to it's limits in CrossFit workouts, so why was this so hard for me to get through? This is one of the reasons why we do CrossFit, so that we can do whatever we want out in the real world right? I kept telling myself over and over again, "You've done worse. You just did Murph 5 days ago for crying out loud!" But even with all that, I still couldn't escape the voice inside my head begging me to stop. With less than a mile left until we reached the peak, I changed up my mindset. The whole way up the mountain I realized I was letting myself give in to that tiny bit of doubt I had tucked away in my brain. That bit of doubt that says, "You can't do this." I've beat that voice many times over again in the last 3 years. What made this hike any different? To be completely honest, I was afraid. The second I started feeling like no matter how deep a breath I took, I couldn't seem to get enough air in, I let that little bit of doubt rush in and take control. I have asthma so not being able to breathe is a very real problem for me, despite not having had an attack in years. That fear of not being able to breathe was keeping me from finishing the hike. But was I really unable to breathe? Or was I just getting so worked up by the fear, that I was making it harder on myself? I took a few big deep breaths and tried to calm myself down. I gave myself a little pep talk filled with a lot of positive affirmations and a few stern "suck it up's." After that, I felt better. That's not to say I was magically at 100%. I was still tired and I had to be aware of controlling my breathing the rest of the way. But I ended up finishing the hike without any serious problems.
Sometimes all it takes is turning your attitude around and switching that "I can't do this" into "I can do this. Now watch me." When we're afraid of something, it's really hard to make that switch. Your mind will fight you tooth and nail before allowing you to push passed that fear. But when we do, it's always worth it.
The view from the top of Mt. Pilchuck. #worthit
A. 2rm push press
3 rounds for time:
21 KB swings (53/35, USA)
12 pull ups
Posted by Megan